Saturday, May 31, 2008

Sorrow Centers

Sorrow centers. Noisy, musical, auto-deictic, onanistic, keeping itself secret, calling attention to itself, in the cave of the world, making a scene, holding itself in, holding onto itself, prolonging itself, pushing itself, as if tears could come from one’s crown, exhausting itself, finding itself, somewhere else, here. Sorrow centers the one who sorrows. But it centers to an opposite point from where, today, one is supposed to be or is praised for being “centered,” the still center of equipoise where one is already centered. Instead sorrow centers to a new center, to which it moves, not by moving towards it at all, but by pushing itself back into it, as if into a more primordial place, in refusal of what cannot be moved, what cannot go away, what should not be, what must be so one can sorrow. The sorrower centers herself in reverse, by repulsion into an unknown remembered place, pushing against the immovable. Like a metaphysical burrowing or birthing, not born into something, but born from, backwards, upsidedown, into who knows where, the way we were born.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Constabulary interface rectifies uncertainties in this, and worlds of the past. As you of all people would know. Police state ramifications include: response channel indicator lights being placed on ANY and ALL of our newest proto-religious consoles. Cause and effect? The Quiet Mind will answer. In time... CAMERADE ONZE, of SACREMAIN, THE LEVANT

Tami Smiles, BKLYN said...

Wow, I've been reading this blog for a while now. I mean Nicola, you're smart and all (and kinda hot i must admit) but this Onze character is onto something. I've been reading up on this Quiet Mind stuff lately. It's awesome. Sacremain, that's sacred hand, right?

Nicola Masciandaro said...

He is onto everything. My mind will quietly gloss Onze's indicator light and Tami's 'kinda' well into the evening.

Tami Smiles, BKLYN said...

LOL
Hey I reread your thing about sorrow. Its awesome. I mean when your sad you feel like your at the center of the universe. maybe that why some people like drama so much. i guess its kinda like narcissitic and all (or onanistic like you say but that's yucky cause I'm a girl, right?). Anyway, tres cool what you said, that is if I understood it right. maybe I should turn off my iPod and read it again. Anyway, stay coolio, handsome. Ciao!

Anonymous said...

I have a nice pile of yams. Tammy, holla

Tami Smiles, BKLYN said...

Silly yam farmer. Holla back!
Yo, Nicky you should write one of them poems you like to write so much about yams, lol ;)
And its Tami with an I ya noodle.!